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Depression

"Depression" by Emilie R. B. Pratt 14 August 2017

I want to hide in darkness
Surrounded by despair.
I can't control my feelings
It's hard to find the air.

This isn't me.

I don't know where I am.

The sadness slowly took over.
One little piece at a time
It came crawling, reaching,
Touching every part of my life.

I miss myself.

I want to be set free.

My life was full of purpose.
I had direction, confidence, peace.
People wanted to be around me,
Very few things bring relief.

Anger, fear, anxiety, stress.
They all take a turn.
I don't have any control.
I must watch from a distance.

I want to come back.

I feel defeated.

Doctors are expensive,
But maybe there's a way.
I'm afraid to lose completely,
But the darkness makes me stay.

I have depression.

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